Felt really emotional otw home, I don't really know why.
Felt a little suicidal. Why, god knows.
I don't feel loved. I really don't.
I don't feel that you guys treat me, really, as a friend.
I'm always the one that contacts you guys, you're happy to go on without me.
I feel excluded.
I never know when you guys are going out, I feel that I'm asked out as an afterthought.
Maybe, you guys don't know that I feel this way. Maybe my mask is too perfect.
But, I just wanna type this out.
I feel excluded. It hurts.
Am I wrong, to do this? Maybe after this post is typed out, I'll get a different treatment.
Good or bad, I'll won't know yet.
But I know that I've been taking it silently, far too long.
Maybe an odd number isn't a good idea.
Maybe I should just extricate myself from this friendship before I tumble down even further.

I'm not insulting you, and I hope I don't offend.
I'm just saying I feel excluded.
It'll be nice to receive a text that's an invite.
It'll be nice to feel included.
I didn't wanna post this on tumblr, far too many people read my tumblr than my blogger.
But I didn't wanna turn on my laptop just to vent. Zzz.
This post will be gone by the next time I turn on my laptop, I promise.

Maybe I'm too meek in my friendships, always going the extra mile to help.
Maybe I should flare up.
But I'm afraid that if I do, I'll be shunned.

Too much CM. I feel like I'm hungry for attention.
I am.